introspection

liffe has never given her the best but she learned to love the things god has given her to the fullest and has  accepted things even when she felt it was unfair to...

but sometimes her expectations of the whole world narrow down to just thaat one soul she loves truly...
her love is posessive, crazy, jealous,but...unconditional...not materialistic ...
she wants the attention , the care, the importance , the security that she s the one and will always be..

she sometimes wants him to knw her like she knows herself...

she constantly wants a subtle reminder that she s  loved ...
she knows deep within she is being unreasonable..

but she s  not able to hold bak or help herself from doing this...

if she has never expected anything from anyone is t fair for her to expect the whole worlds share of expectation from that one soul???

my magic world

Daddys lil  angel and the life of her home,
lived in a magic of world of her own,
the stars would twinkle to make her laugh
and her frown would make mr moon into half,
she was fun with friends and the noisiest around,
she was alone and lonely, and made no sound,
clouds would pass a message across,
worried for nothing an unknown loss,
colorful like the rainbow,black like coal,
so much to do, but with no goal,
moves to the tune that the wind plays
bright on the cover but with hidden greys,
waiting to fill the empty box
smiled always hoping to move the rocks,
when the blues had turned away one night,
hard to believe she ran to hide,
and then she stepped in,and the first rays
touched her and she fell on her knees to pray,
happiness rolling down she then had cried,
that was when she first felt the fright,
when u have a dream and hope for it to be true,
there is this unknown and positive strength within u,
but when it happens and your living it then,
your insecurities and ur weakness fail to pretend,
she holds her dreams carefully in her palm,
not loose to fall or tight to harm,
and then on her way to her little magic world,
she recollects what was one told,
always live contended and happy with what u hold,
and then even the stones will turn to look like gold,
but now god knows whose call was heard,
and she danced and flew like an uncaged  bird.
with love and gratitude she then thanks,
the one who completed the unfilled blanks!!! :) :)